Yoga

Silently, because they have been asked,
the members of my body straighten —
they stretch out from where they’ve been crunched,
find new alignment with each other.
They take up the work of support,
they learn to do their part

So I stand taller,
I find bend and balance,
I find length and strength,
and the air
flows through me
fuller, deeper

I feel this shape
is more me
than I have been before,
which makes me wonder
what decisions
put us in our former shape
and what awakening
awaits us yet.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 17, 2017

As it turned out

We had rehearsed our story
so many times. We had imagined
great cachet in it, in the moment
we could look back, victorious,
and the eager ears that would
take in our tale

Funny to notice
how little difference
it turned out to make,
how all the dramas we narrated
to ourselves, and to imagined others,
seem irrelevant,
caught up, as we are,
in the constant music,
in the enchanting brightness,
ever unfolding,
of here.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 16, 2017

New Words

A few steps behind us
as we were leaving
we heard the crash and rumble,
structures falling down

Nothing of it touched us, though,
nor did it touch anyone —
I guess we were all leaving
at the same time

I guess we are arriving
at where we need to be,
and we’ll recognize each other here,
see as we have never seen

We’ll need new words for this,
for how we feel
in this place without dust,
as we find ourselves real.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 15, 2017

Markers

Nah, I’m not approaching
some kind of threshold —
no door advances towards me,
no conveyer bears me, willy nilly,
towards a place of change

My progress rather
is like the dawn
and the stately procession
of summer clouds

No reckoning, no tally,
just the roll of days
and the smile of light footfall,
barefoot communion,
electrifying praise.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 13, 2017

Transitioning

It’s not like I’m leaving,
I said, though by some counts
I was already
long gone

It’s not like I could leave
the new and old nets of care,
not like I could stop loving

Just that the goals
here in this rarified air
have nothing to do with
what used to possess me

Just that my time is spent
along a different vector
and the measurement
of what is worth my doing
has completely changed —
other than that
I’m just the same.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 11, 2017

Touch Wisdom

Touch teaches tenderness,
teaches bones to soften their approach,
teaches the curl of the snuggle that,
coming in close and quick,
still doesn’t crash

Touch teaches affection
regardless of intent —
even mundane creature care
(diapers and washing)
leaves a connection that lingers
after the touch is released

My cerebral world taught me
the mind must decide first
if touch has been earned, is permitted,
but now my helping arms have learned
touch doesn’t need a reason.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 9, 2017

Presence

In the new light
in which I see myself,
there’s no more room
for grudging thoughts —

(grudging acceptance,
grudging allowance
for the needs and presence
of another)

I am not justified
in seeing anyone
with something less than love

This is, after all,
my whole being. I have no presence
except the presence of my love.
No point in striving
for some other goal —
only in loving
am I whole.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 8, 2017

Meeting Place

Not me, not you,
not the accumulation
of our feats and foibles,
not our prowess, not our evolving,
not the challenges we’ve met
or failed to conquer

But rather, the willing leaving
of all those stories, all those chains,
responding to what calls
the radical insides, the rawest
and purest of desires,
that which, when we ride with it,
thrums us alive,
each moment more
than we could imagine

This is where, meeting,
we will be amazed with each other
and at the same time, with ourselves —
this is where we’ll tell ourselves,
over and over,
yes and yes, yes and yes and yes.

©Wendy Mulhern
July 6, 2017