Hammock, Mid-day, First of May

hammock view

Happiness like chinks of sky
between the tree limbs
shifts gently in the breeze,
drops like a small mossy twig
onto my hammock, its descent, no doubt,
in phases —having broken off
before the breeze occasioned
its silent fall

Insects that ride mostly on air currents
assert their will at chosen moments,
ravens converse in the distance

Time, when observed,
seems not to move,
but leaps in weeks and years
when I’m not looking,
a cloud begins its journey
across the blue between the trees
as if it’s a long haul,
but disappears almost at once
behind a branch

The wind comes up
and all the trees have thoughts about it,
rush hush whispers passed
from crown to crown,
unseen insects click among the leaves
and there’s really no direction that’s essential
except the rising, falling breath,
the gift of life.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 1, 2016

Being

tulips

In one moment, I felt myself released
from time, from space, from history —
I saw my being as comprised of
what I’d always thought was hope
but now I saw was truth,
the impulse given me,
the exclamation of my presence
which nothing can diminish

In another moment, standing
freshly in the garden,
with the rain stopped
and all the scents rising
in the open gratitude
for all this life given,
I was clearly here,
attached to these particulars,
still with this purpose
of being joy.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 29, 2016

Shelters

shelters

Later in life, I’ve found
there are many kinds of shelter,
many ways we lean upon each other,
many structures that give us what we need

(fairy tale castles, after all,
being hard to come by,
and within, beset by drafts and rodents,
picture perfect cottages proved lacking
in dimension)

I have a lean-to in a corner of my mind
that’s made of nothing, as far as I can tell,
except my love,
I have a fire
that delights me every time
I find it still burning,
its cheering flames
produced by time with friends

I have a sense that after
all my fumbling efforts at this life,
the shelters lost, or casually abandoned,
I’ll come to find that nothing mattered,
and everything did,
that shelter resides
in any circle of support,
and they are numerous
as crystals on the shore.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 28, 2016

Rise Up

 

Oxalis,maple

You are innocent.
There are no wrongs
for which you must atone,
no layers of pain and shame
rolled up in justification,
rolled up in anger,
rolled up in desperate deeds

There is no errant course
that justifies your bondage,
no years indentured
that you have to pay,
there are no habits
which keep you stooped, submissive,
no lock and key upon your day

You are innocent,
and you are thereby free
to shine the light of you, to be
the things you always sensed
were your potential.
You have not lost them,
you have not forgotten,
you have not failed
to take the needed way.
Stand up and walk —
all blunders are forgiven —
You are granted your primal peace today.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 27, 2016

No Contest

Green Lake Sycomore

There will be no more contests.
I, at least, will not compete
for those dubious awards —
most envied,
most evolved,
most tragically thwarted
(or more exalted ones
I deemed outside my range)
I won’t pursue them for myself
or for my children,
won’t play for them in back rooms
of my mind

I have had enough now.
It’s time to take myself and,
as I can, lay aside those filters
and those trappings.
It’s time to meet each being
with the attention that he or she or it deserves,
having been put here, after all,
in this place, in this moment,
so we could uplift each other,
so we could be in awe
of how amazingly
Life provides our joy.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 26, 2016

An Answer of Peace

tulips and artichokes

Let me not presume
to have the self-importance
to get it wrong. To tell myself
“if only you see better,
and rightly understand,
then all will flourish —
if your life is blighted,
you need to work harder”

Let me not imagine,
in the face of the fullness
of everything,
that I have the power
to get it wrong.

It’s not in me —
Life will provide me
an answer of peace.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 24, 2016

Listing

Green Lake trees and people

Sometimes in moments
in between the trees
as my feet fall quiet on the walk,
I feel a tug that lists me slightly
to the left

and must remind myself

I’m through with pining,
through with indulging
that restless loneliness
that knows not what it wants
but feels bereft

I must remember

There isn’t anything
that, if I had, would make me happy,
there isn’t anything I lack,
and what I need
I carry here within me
and when I’m feeling lost,
it brings me back.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 23, 2016

Creativity

apple blossom buds

Being creative
is part of the plan,
part of the everyday joy,
not for some but not others —
a primal fact of life

You are creative as dandelions,
as flickers and robins,
as today’s breath of wind
and quiet rain

You are creative
as the delighted adaptation
of everything
to the moment’s confluences —

It is your due
that every step be creative,
as needed as comfort,
as close as home.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 22, 2016

Dawn

morning cedars

After the dawn extinguished
all the little glows, all the distant
points of light, all the length
of last night’s vigil

As the warmth flows through you,
softening the rigid edges,
as the climbing sun
releases grateful scents
from fronds and blossoms,
you may notice
that every stumbling footstep in the dark
was needed, every little light was real

And though the dawn would come no matter what,
the yearning that you called your life still helped —
it helped you recognize it,
helped you feel its gifts
and reap its prizes.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 21, 2016

Silence

iris 2

 

And maybe there are times
when there isn’t anything
to be said,
but it’s important to be there,
to share a silence,
to share the weight of presence,
to sit with someone
as they descend through a process
you may or may not understand

And sometimes you might detect
that you have walked a parallel path,
and there might still be
nothing to say about it.
You, too, might benefit
from the ballast of silence.

©Wendy Mulhern
April 20, 2016