Two for Japan

My life walks on with its normal considerations, and I grumble inwardly about the weather (windy, rainy, raw) and the time change, while in Japan everything has been turned upside down.  What about the tsunami?  What about that which stops everything?  Attention turns from Libya to Japan, though the fierce dramas unfolding in Libya and Bahrain continue.  As does the sniping in Afghanistan, and the myriad struggles in Africa.  I guess I have no choice but to live my own life, where I am.  And, as long as it’s not disturbed, proceed as normal.  Homework, life aspirations, weddings in the family . . . 
But here are two for Japan:
I.
Just a trifled shuffling of the earth
and all that seemed established came unmoored
swept and tossed and flowing, falling downward
in a moment wasted, mired and marred
plans and dreams, like cars and houses carried
creaking, from the hopes that held them fast
a stark today; tomorrow has been buried
left in the jumbled rubble of the past.
Of death and what it means – who can say
if they’re set free, or face horrendous trials
but the survivors – what they face – oh let us pray
for healing for their decimated isles
and let us pause in silence for their sorrow
what came to them may come to us tomorrow.
II.
Here and now, the only truth is goodness
whatever has been spewed and spilled and tumbled
Here and now, the quiet space of promise
of character that rises from the rubble
Here and now, hands reach out in compassion
People stop, rethink their frenzied paths
Hearts are inundated with emotion
and grasp the anchored love that holds them fast
“We will rebuild,” they say, “and stronger, better.”
“It’s what we’re here to do, and so we must.”
We see the triumph of determination
the solid impulse where they place their trust
We never wish such sharp calls to survive
but here and now, this people is alive.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 15, 2011



Lurching Forward

My family, befuddled by the lurch of springing forward
totters through the starting steps of day
We stumble toward the afternoon at risk of crashing floor-ward
It isn’t our design to live this way
In nature’s wisdom, light’s return comes incrementally 
a quiet step on each side of the day
But commerce grabs the hour of evening greedily
without a care what we may have to say
It turns its gears and spits us night for morning
We reel and grumble to our daily tasks
But then our equilibrium adjusts itself, and slowly
we rise from depths towards what the morning asks
No worries – light’s swift wings will overtake us
bear us up where true spring can embrace us.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 15, 2011



Finding your voice

A friend posted a link to a video of a high school valedictorian who used her speech to criticize the system that she had slaved for through the years of her schooling.  She urged students to find their own voices, and not succumb to the pressure to be molded into automatons for the system of corporate economy.  
I tried to shield my own children from this system.  I said, as a new parent, “Children are born knowing who they are.  My goal is that my children still know when they get through school.”  And, I think, to a great extent, they do know.  But my heart went out to this valedictorian for her courage and the task ahead of her, knowing from my own experience that re-discovering who you are can be a monumental task.
The Valedictorian
She said she wished no more to do as bidden
 – too long a slave to school’s arcane demands
She hoped to find where her own spark was hidden
to open out her life with her own hands
She found it her most difficult assignment
the voices of the system so entwined
within her thought, she couldn’t seem to find it
What did she want? What, here, was her own mind?
The layers, like cabbage leaves so tightly wrapped
her voice so far inside as to be silent
while criticisms, cynical and apt
mimic her voice to snipe at her alignment
Take heart, oh Daughter – what your wish has summoned
will rise, will decompress, will overcome.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 13, 2011


Thoughts make themselves known

If I hadn’t tried to write it in a poem, the thought, a little glimmer, would have expressed itself in far different ways.  Did, in fact; I wrote a page in my journal about cleaning the house while thoughts hovered just at the edge of my accepting them – borderline negative, but held at bay by some impervious membrane.  I came to the place of seeing how much the same we all are, for all our sense of singularity and frequent isolation.  We all need to bring forth that within us which makes us who we are.  In poetry, it came out like this:
There is no existential fact of night
the word speaks of the endless depth of space
the field wherein the play of stars is staged
Each star gives tribute to the light
Each star must serve the existential light
the pulse within, essential churning force
which rises out of need and tumbles forth
We see their sharp travail across the night
We see their offering across the night
and know we, too, must ever do the same
we too must birth our inner urgent flame
Each life gives tribute to the light.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 12, 2011


You Shine

For Aud, on her birthday
as phosphorescence calls to star
across the wide abyss of scale and space
as smiling dancers catch each other’s eye
in liquid motion of communal grace
as laughter flows like mountain streams
reflecting sunlight, bright cascading thread
as shared remembrance brings out precious dreams
collecting gravity to hold connection steady
so your strong line of light calls forth the spark
that makes us feel accepted and connected
you shine, and we glow forth against the dark
shine on shine, down chains of light reflected
amid life’s scrambles, worries, hopes, and woe
you shine – I wanted you to know.
with love from Wendy


©Wendy Mulhern
March 11, 2011


Homework

Father and son
work on math
socks abandoned on the floor
beneath the stools on which they sat
to pore through textbooks
try equations
series
permutations
probabilities.
The heat of mind exertion rises
rests on cheeks, enlivens eyes
The problems don’t turn off at night
impinge on sleep of father
(not of son, who crashes mightily
and fills with languor deep and thick)
Both hard to rouse come morning.
But next day, they resume
(what did you get for number four?)
and though the son will not admit it
a smile hovers
just behind his mouth.
They power through together.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 8, 2011



Flying Turtles

I let the breathing and the chords entrance
me in the inter-weavings of the dance
where arms could touch and bring another in
to an embrace that swayed as we’d begin
to move in single pulsing waves as one
to give each other’s touch permission and
each one a welcome not to be alone.
We moved in holy breath, entwining arms
the steady strength of backs against each other
or fingers brushed like butterflies together
and separated by a common wind
then stirred into a frenzied, twirling blend.
We leave our fears and judgment well away
So all can permeate us in their way.


©Wendy Mulhern
December 3, 2010



Ivy

Today I pulled invasive ivy from the backyard, while my husband sat with his father in the emergency room after we received a call that he (my father-in-law) had been delivered there after fainting in church.  And I had several sweet new communications via facebook, and my son and my husband powered through math in spite of setbacks.  Later (with me still smelling of ivy) my husband and I talked of past and future – disappointments and resolutions relating to his father.  All of which amounted to the following:
Ivy Twining
The ivy is my worthy yard opponent
It teaches me of life as I uproot it
It spreads its complicated woven networks
I comb the loam for horizontal runners
Today I planted several tender tendrils
Beginning branchings that I hope will grow
Nets that can, entwined, uphold each other
A web of trust that all of us can know
While in another branching of the family
The knotted roots of past – betrayal, anger
Pulled consequences out from distant reaches
Touched off by small deception’s ancient hold
I rip out armloads, stuff it all away
As ivy’s images creep, wily, through my day.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 6, 2011


Touch

I went to the Turtle Dance last night, and realized, towards the end of it, how I crave touch.  Not just the touch of one other, though that is nice, but the intertwined, complex touch of many people moving together.  
The Turtle Dance is a weekly ecstatic dance frequented by people who often express the conviction that they are part of an inexorable love revolution – yes, somewhat hippie – and sometimes, when I’m there, I can believe it.  Sometimes I go away feeling that no one there knows me or cares whether I’m there, though they seem to care about each other.  Other times I feel like I belong.  The difference is in whether I have been in a good, multi-person, intertwining dance.

A touch can be a chord, a hum, a tuning
A circuit closed, electric-lighting joy
The answer to my silent, nameless yearning
that carries me through darkness to the day
A touch can form a net of strong connection
A place to hold my fragile, new-formed soul
A current that delivers satisfaction
The DNA for growing strong and whole.
Though I may live without it, my deep hunger
will send me searching for it in its time
I’ll need to twine my tendrils with some others
and wind around to reach the light, and climb.
I’ll drink touch in for what it can provide;
My need for contact will not be denied.


©Wendy Mulhern
March 5, 2011