Life Size

I’d come to think of my life as small —
small circles, small desire,
small prospects, small needs,
and it felt truer, certainly, than
how I used to wave my hand,
and utter grand plans,
and watch, with something less than confidence,
for some great wave to come along
and bear me up to what I felt
was a deserving height

I recognize that humbleness
is both the starting point
and the essential stance
for riding on the arc of being.
I notice, too, that service to infinity
does not make me small

And so, though I don’t know
what it is for, or how it will work out,
I now am willing
to enlarge my tent.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 9, 2019

Flow

The river calls its tributaries —
they are drawn to the flow —
all water follows
by virtue of what it is

Of water moved by Spirit
we are formed, we are born,
we are borne along the course prepared

Of water and of Spirit
we find ourselves
new as this breath,
steady as the presence of the infinite.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 7, 2019

Paradise

We’re building a house in paradise,
building it much more slowly
than winter peas which finally flower
despite the constant munching of them
by me and deer

We’re building paradise
with each instance of persistent care,
with our attention, our humbleness,
our patience,
and the quick moments of looking up
to notice the wonder of the day.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 6, 2019

No Future

Here I am, in this day,
in this project,
with no future to think of, beyond
it may rain this afternoon, beyond
we may get this house built sometime

Not sure of the purpose of future anyway,
with days as full as they are,
clouds coming in across the hills,
new mom turkey walking with her brood,
little nuthatch heard before sighted
flitting among the firs.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 5, 2019

Life as Tree

Nobody’s life is a straight course —
they all have their crashes,
public and private,
they all have their changes,
complete uprooting
of what they thought was true

The various chasms
may not be seen
on the paper veneer
of a life’s facade,
but we can understand
they are there

Nobody’s life is a story,
however much we’re trained
to think they are —
our lives are more like trees,
branches broken, other ones grown in,
taking every path that puts forth green.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 3, 2019

Sturdy

It is a time of sturdy growth —
bracken fern at chest, head, height,
grass still green but growing purple heads,
tender bright new needles on the firs,
daisies lifting white across the fields

We, too, are feeling sturdy,
nourished by the land, the ground,
and by the care we give.
Some roots we never knew about
are taking hold,
making us steady, stable,
here where we live.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 2, 2019

The Sacred Offering

I consider the faces of gratitude
and notice
they don’t include
a feeling of not deserving
what has been given,
though the gift is immense,
though I have longed for it
all the way down my memory
as far as I can see

When I see that I have it now,
I can’t say I shouldn’t want it,
or that I haven’t earned it,
or that I have.
Gratitude is exactly the price
for the beauty of my days.

©Wendy Mulhern
June 1, 2019

Some Dream

This could be one dream,
could be another
(as I awoke this morning
after saying “would you like a spoon?”)
—a setting, and some people,
and the day to day familiarity
of being — nothing high stakes,
nothing too emotional,
just the exchange of words
and the exchange of gifts

A place I put myself
no more or less
than putting myself here —
in this afternoon
of wind and trees and rest
and taking in what’s given,
taking it, and calling it what’s here.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 31, 2019

Victory

There is victory
in finding a way to work,
finding a way to work together —
the rhythm, the banter,
the settling in to tasks
that take two hands, and three,
and sometimes four

There is victory
when ways to get things done
open up, and what seemed impossible
becomes a set of steps that we can do,
getting better at them
as we go,
gaining in the strength to see things through.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 30, 2019

Possessing the Land

I will go up and possess this land,
I will not worry,
I will not be made to feel
like we are grasshoppers,
easy to crush by forces fierce and daunting

What I may be
in my own esteem
has no bearing at all
on prospects of success

The key is that I reckon
the source and will
that moves me
even as it moves everything

The key is that I go forth,
trusting and eager,
taking the steps with confidence
that, as long as I move forward,
I will be guided.

©Wendy Mulhern
May 29, 2019